Gamitan masa lalu...

Good scenes wont last forever,
so does good thing in our lives...
But, it's in our hand to capture them and put them in our memories,
so that they'll last forever...

Wow... and Its been 2 years I'm in University...
As i'm relaxing in room, selongkar2 things in my hard disk... accidently opened a file... and its all coming back to me, just as fresh as it was yesterday... Matrix life was really a moment to remember, with frenzy yet crazy H3T19 groups and other frenz... I miss them a lot...

Here goes:

Mula2 sampai, muka baik2 je~ hahaha, wif Eugene~

ini smua muka2 budak H3T19, miss you guys that much... Yg kat tgh2 tu,
the class's "Mr. Pooh".... :3


Telalu excited, lari2 pastu terjatuh.... malu2.. tp enjoy... scene ni di Pantai kat labuan, sya tlupa nama dia



Ni 3 org power rangers... Mkyle, JameRy and WantanHo... hahaha



Pancur hitam... tempat muda mudi bercanda-canda indah~



A christmas nite in K.Kinabalu... (seriously, those gurls were... WOW!!!)




wonderful roomates
ME, Wong, Ah Chai, n Im..



at KK waterfront if im not mistaken... BEst time ever!!

There are more but I just cant upload all....
Thanks for these memories guys, miss you all... hope the best for everyone....

P/s: Setiap org akan tgglkn jejak dlm hidup kita, teman, rakan, dan sahabat, Mereka lah pemandu hidup kita, kenali diri kita dan fahami psamaan & pebezaan kita. Mereka dtg dan pergi tnpa kita relakan, tp ingatilah, walau d mana pon kalian brada, sentiasa kalian di hati saya...

Listen to your heart...

I know there is something in your mind when you smile,
I get the notion from the glimpse in your eyes,
Swallowing every hard choices into your deep mind,
Its like taking medicational pills,
Bitter but you have to,
I dunno how long this can go,
I dunno if this fight is worthwhile either,
But what you do, listen to your heart...
You will find solace, you will find tranquility, you will find a solution,
Believe me, fighting a fire with fire, is the worst part,
It'll burn you as well as people around you,
It's not that I quit from this fight and going against you,
Thats not what I mean,
I know, A quiter never wins,
Lets slow down and rethink,
Is this what we want?
I know there's nothing else you can do,
But listen to your heart,
There are so many voices wanted to be heard,
But you dunno where to word them,
Yes, nothing seems to be like what it seems,
Yes, everything is like worst nightmare ever,
Yes, many keep a blind sight from what you're trying to express,
I've undergone this and I know how it feels,
Its like you're not belonging,
You dunno where you're going,
and you dunno why...
Regardless of what decision u made,
I'll be standing behind you,
Even if it'll change our future,
I'll accepting it,
as long as, it comes from your heart...

Mamai cayang Chek War sik?

Rindu la pulak dengan anak2 buah aku ni, Ipin, mamai ngan ika...
Mamai: Chek war, apa tok oo?
Danel: tok nama nya laptop la mamai ooi~ besar kelak mamal bole pakai...
Mamai: ada momok bakang mamai... eee takowt mamai...
Danel: Ni chek war la mamai....

Lari2 pergi tgh bilik, pastu nanges, nak Chek War dia pujuk bawa pergi tgk Koleksi terhangat chek war, "Crush Gears (ada 2 versi pertama dan 4 versi kedua, my favourite namanya Shooting Phantom , Beyblade (ada kesmua hero punya Dranzer, Dracell, Driger, my favourite namanya Dragoon), kereta control race-team (ada dua, Merah hitam dan Putih pink, my favourite is the second one), Let's & Go 4-wd dash (Yang ni banyak giler ada 10 kot, my favourite adalah Beak Spider ngan Neo Tridagger) last skali, patung pokemon season 1&2, yang ni ada 120 lebih camtu la...

Semua koleksi2 ini berada dalam sebuah almari biru kaca yg cantik sehingga la satu hari.

Danel: Nek, ni ayam2 aku dlm jemari tok? (nenek, mana mainan/koleksi aku dlm almari ni?)

Nenek: Oh, ari nyak anak2 dik datai, dak Kamal nggau Ika kak main, nyabak2, bukak aku kunci asoh sidak main. (Oh, ari tu anak2 kau (anak buah) datang, Kamal (mamai) dan Ika ,nanges2, aku pon buka la kunci almari tu bagi mereka main.)

Danel: appuuuuu~~~~ (aiyoooooooo~~~~)

Dua minggu terkejut, xda selera makan, x mandi, x tgk TV. Lepas tu, bila difikirkan balik, tgk budak2 tu seronok, aku seronok gak... biar la koleksi2 aku ni jadi teman mereka, kalau disimpan kalau x dimain, apa gunanya mainan kan... =) sayang anak2 buah aku... <3

P/s: My favourites:
Tamiya 4WD

Tridagger-X casing and NEO Tridagger ZMC, I miss them a lot. (My tridaggers are like these but these photos i got from google)


Beak Spider memang elegant and good aerofoil body. I cuma ada yg versi hitam, yg putih ni I xda...

Beyblade:

Berbezanya dragoon dari beyblade lain ialah, style pusingan nya yg anti-clock wise, pastu ada flat tip at the bottom yg allowing it in attack mode and defense mode easily, kelemahan dragoon ialah ianya ringan dan pendek. couterpart dia ialah Dranzer, yg boleh lompat sama mcm Tri-Eagle kalau x silap, beyblade ni ada spring kat bottom dan usually serangan dari atas.

Crush Gears:

x jumpa la gambar yg lebih menarik, tapi seriously shooting phantom mmg hebat, mode dia ialah direct attack and speed. Shooting phantom ialah upgrade daripada shooting mirage yg telah ditewaskan oleh Grifeed.

Hmmm~ hahahaha~ Sifat kebudak-budakan ini hilang bila aku masuk Uni... kenapa ea? Skrg ni mcm mudah mngalah je, dan serious dlm hidup... terlalu dewasa kah? Lucu la pulak bila difikirkan balik...

The road taken...

I've never been so depressed until this week,
This whole week is like a living torture chamber,
Tests, assignments, trips, and so on,
and I still dunno which path will all these leading me to.
Lacking of time to rest maybe the biggest contributor to my lameness in class,
I tried to concentrate more by sitting in the front but fruiting nothing, or even worse,
sleepier.
Haiz, is this what life suppose to be?
Works, works, works, works and works?
Am I suppose to regret? or is this how we learn to be stronger and determined?

A kind friend of mine, motivated me in her own way, sharing thoughts and experiences,
Elevated my motivation a bit.
Stay strong and keep holding on, thats she said.
"If u giving up, then what do you expect from us?"
"Dun be silly, we'll loose our grips too without you."
Really heart-touching and motivating.

I never regret to end up in the path that I take right now,
I never repent to be away from the one I love,
But I do feel sorry for myself because I'm not ready to do big things while others are,
All these time I said to myself not to believe in others too much,
And now, it's all coming back to me.
How can they believe in me if I'm not sure myself what to do.

Remorse, depress, stress, and self-demotivate come to me,
Just like an instant 4-in-one coffee, blending into aromas,
sweet and thick but poisonous yet paralyzing.

And a problem is not yet finished,
here comes another one, chaining my flexibility and freedom,
people maybe cant see it but Im feeling the big impact it gives.
My study sucks, my head burns, my chest pains,
and my mind is contaminated with all kinds of foul words that I can hardly express them out.

What to do, you are the chosen one as they said,
shoulder this pain and you get better gain,
Just need time to sleep I think,
Hopefully a good tomorrow morning will be the best remedy,
Seeing these "pushers" and high demanders with a face of a sweettooth toddler...

Hatinya terguris...

Keluar saja dari dewan itu,
Mukanya bagai mayat hidup...
Tanpa reaksi, tanpa suara,
yang dia teringatkan cuma peristiwa tersebut,
Kenapa berlaku perkara sedemikian... Kaum aku sendiri buat perkara macam ni...
Perlukah smua itu... langkahnya berderap tanpa hiraukan org yg mmandangnya,
hatinya btul2 terguris...

Dua orang rakan yg khusyuk menikmati ayam goreng di kedai makan,
memerhatikannya dari jauh,
dia seolah2 berada dlm dunianya,
pelik, apa terjadi kat mamat sorang ni detak hati salah seorang dari mereka...

Aku boleh mengagak, apa yg berlaku kat budak sorang ni,
terus, aku ajak member yg tgh mlayan ayam goreng tadi ikut mamat sorang ni,
takut2 apa2 terjadi kat dia,
keadaannya mmg mnyedihkan,
hatinya bercelaru,
mukanya macam heater yg membawa air mendidih,
dengusan nafas mcm serombong kapal yg nak btolak, (perumpamaan yg ekstrem pulak)
kakinya terus melangkah...

Hey, tunggu la sebentar,
Dia menoleh, berhenti sebentar, pastu bjalan smula,

Dua org rakan tadi tu, berlari anak mdapatkan dia.
U ok ka?
Dia x menjawab.
U sihat x?
Dia membisu.
Apa jadi kat u ni?
Dia sayu.

Sbagai seorang teman yg berhemah, aku ikut dia.
Sama2 layan jiwa bersama2... Keadaan dia yg mnyedihkan,
mmbuatku terfikir, kenapa perlu dia menanggung ketidakadilan sedemikian?
Kenapa harus dia yg merasa onak dan duri hidup yg sedemikian kejam?

Kalau u dah x tahan, knapa u x buat perkara yg sma macha?
Kali ni dia menjawab,
Aku ada maruah yg aku pegang,
walaupon aku xla sepandai engkau,
tapi aku tau di mana adabnya betul dan salah,
perbezaan halal dan haram mengikut agamaku...
Kalau itu pon aku x tau,
macam mana aku nak bdepan dgn DIA...

terkesima aku dgn statement dia, begitu juga member yg sorang lagi. Kenapa ada julat di antara manusia sampai yg baik itu sentiasa menjadi mangsa keadaan?
Aku mmg pelik dgn smua itu,
Dia pon kata lagi,
Aku tau, x kisah apa yg aku buat, hasilnya ttp sama,
begitu juga orang lain,
tapi aku kecewa la dgn sikap sstgh org ni...
kalau dah itu kmampuan kita,
jgn la kita mimpikan istana,
biarpon kita dpt tggl di istana,
itukah apa yg wajar kita dpt?

aku terdiam sejenak, lepas tu mula membelek2 pakaian, hatiku melayang ke tempat lain,
btapa tergurisnya hati dia... bagiku, walaupon dia bukan la sapa2 berpangkat dan darjat,
tetapi suara hatinya harus didengari...

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p/s: Slalunya kita x sedar apa yg org lain rasakan, kita buat kerja ikut sdp hati dan perasaan kita shja. Bila A buat kerja lebih dan nyata di mata kita, kita akan puji, kita akan naik2kan nama A. Bila B buat kerja, tapi diam2 dan tanpa kita ketahui, kita akan cakap B xda komitmen, jarang jumpa, sentiasa mengular... Sedarla wahai insan yg lemah, kita mungkin x tau, dlm diam jasanya byk pada kita, cuma kita x merasainya saja, walaupon sebesar semut pon bakti dia, dia ttp membantumu... bila masa dia dah hilang komitmen padamu, jgn salahkan dia sbb dia dah berusaha membuat yg terbaik tetapi kamu yg hancurkan usaha dan niatnya...

Two hours to decide

Time-limiting decision making usually results in
1) Bias decision
2) Irrational way of solving problems
3) Stressful
4) Less competitive solutions
5) Emotional
6) Low quality of ideas

But, this is reality, how can I achieve a better way of making decision within this small amount of time?

First, dont be panic, because we work best when we calm. Throw away the emotionals that will haunt our minds, for example rage, bias, anger and sadness. We will always figure out a way no matter how stiff the condition is, it is just the matter of time and matured way of thinking without emotional force affecting it.

Second, as usual, if you wanna be the best, then seek for the best icon or idol to ask for his/her opinions. Please dont ask too many person because this will make you become more indecisive due to accumulation of good ideas with too many ways of perfect solutions.

Third, seek for trustable friends and brainstorming. As we always do, getting ideas from every member of the group can be really a good way to gain solutions. Even small ideas can be a gigantic yet perfect solution if we can utilise the use of our brains and make the best out of it. Supports from friends and relatives can be a merit to us to make better decisions.

Last, do more information searching if u dont have trustable person arround you. Make it snappy and seek for the important info only. Dun try to complicate ur mind with other present problems and do it step by step and with God's willingness... Within limited of amount time, u'll get the best decision to make.

Look at this picture, how long do you think he made it?
To have a sense of Art in limited amount of time, this is what I call a masterpiece...



An artistic life,
I wish I had more time to decide back then, without emotional interference...

P/s: We are not always born to be someone special, but we can be special by doing what ordinary people cannot do... When time is no longer our concern in making good decisions, we'll be someone that other people will highly respect... (Make ur decision out of your heart, not hard)

Never been so disapointed...

when the "thing" is happening under your own nose,
u hav only two choices to make,
1) Let it be, keep like nothing happened
2) Do something more initiative (in terms of good deeds)
Honestly, I prefer to keep a clean hand.

Desperate, yet irrational decisions made by certain people.
really get into the nerves, but yet better to let it be,
because we are all grown up and know,
what is good and what is bad,

Disapointingly, if we care about and idolize the person,
we always thought that he/she is doing the right things,
but doing immoral things for the sake of self esteem,
it doesnt seem to be a heaven's path to me.
The blame maybe not on the people,
but maybe or just maybe on the system it self.

If u think that shortcut is your way to the top,
then sorry,
u lost my trust and respect,
No longer be someone in my idol ranking,
but maybe time will tell, whether I can trust/respect u anymore or not...
This is fun but feel the seriousness it caused... it is menacing...