God, why me?

Is it so hard for You to make me to believe?

A family man or A company man

As we all grown up,
our first priority in life will be money and status,
to young people like me and some of you,
we wanna be someone better,
grab a good job, working with a big foreign company,
having a handsome high pay...
it is normal guys...
we wanna proof to all those who are looking down at us that we are not that weak,
we are better than what they think,
some will think this is ego, vengeful and desperate
no it is not...
This is what living is for,
we seek for perfection,
sometimes to we have to sacrifice all we have,
money, friends, family, love, happiness and our own life...

Let say that one day,
you are the GD of a big company,
u have status, money, everything and anything.
And you have a devoted wife and a 5 years old toddler...
morning before your wife awake, you are in office already,
at night you're home and she's sleeping...
She calls but you hanged coz still in a meeting...
One day you and her planned to go for a vacation and everything prepared,
the night before, your CEO call and asking you too see him in the Airport,
so you have to cancel all the one-month-planned vacation.
you think your wife will be happy?
you think your kid will know what to call you?
Yep, u got all the money and all the luxury to satisfy their physical needs,
but do you really satisfy their needs as a husband and father?
well, who am I to fight with success, right?
The only thing is that, I admire ur success in profession but not in humanity...
I promised I wanna be a GD like you, but not a worse father and husband like you...
Maybe Im still studying and lots to learn for that,
But when the time come, I'll be ready to be better than you...

Success is made up of all great minds, different perspectives but same goal


Dont use the word "I" in a big event
BUT


Use "WE" instead, believe me, the success will be merrier and sweeter...

P/s : To all my frenz (boys and girls), just a reminder, if u wana have a great life, start it with humanity... The choice is in your hand... A family man or A company man...

Today~

Sunday, 28 March 2010,
wow, hari ni merupakan hari yg paling pelik utk seorang pelajar yg bernama Daniel,
privately jumpa 4 org lecturer dari bidang2 berbeza dlm satu hari...
tapi seriously x menyangka akan mdgr isi hati mereka dan semuanya berlaku tanpa dirancang,
saya ingat saya saja yg bermasalah, rupa2nya mereka pon ada masalah sendiri.
tapi btul2 x sangka yg mereka snggup berkongsi... mungkin ini lah petunjuk dari Tuhan,
"Daniel, you're not the only one....."
aku cakap la kat diri aku sendiri, aku akan jadi lebih tabah,
kita sebagai manusia x bole lari dari masalah,
and now, nothing will distract my commitment to be someone better who I am now...

Aku bukan untukmu?

Benda baik tu sering berlaku pada kita,
tp jangan lupa,
pasti ada risiko disebaliknya,
contohnya cinta,
ianya sesuatu yg menarik, menghayalkan dan mengindahkan anda,
kdg2 kita rasa keliru,
adakah ini yg kita maukan selama ni?
fikiran kita selalu dicemari rasa x puas ataupon segan,
sebabnya kdg2 kita fikir si dia terlalu baik utk kita,
kekurangan yg ada pada kita selalunya menghadkan keupayaan utk mencinta,
bila tiba saja masalah kecil,
kita akan rasa smuanya salah kita,
kerana, kita rasa kita x sempurna dan si dia terlalu baik buat kita.

sebagai seorang teman dan pemberi nasihat,
saya rasa dlm hubungan cinta ini perlukan dua hala,
kita perlu pertimbangkan perasaan kedua2 belah pihak,
mmg btul, cemburu tanda sayang,
tp kalu x kena pada tmpatnya,
gaduh la...

tp apa pon percayalah,
apa pon yg berlaku,
ada hikmahnya,
x smua cinta sampai ke syurga,
bukan salah kita,
cuma kita masih x faham dan x bersedia,
ataupon bagi sesetgh mmber yg saya tgk,
cinta itu ada didepan matanya,
cuma dia terlalu takut utk mengaku,
tp xpa la,
masa pon penentu jugak,
bila tiba masanya,
anda lah org yg paling bertuah di dunia ini...

P/s: Bila cinta gagal, jgn takut utk mencuba lagi... mungkin bukan sekarang tp suatu hari nanti... jangan jadi pengecut mcm sahabat anda ini...

Think about it

Every now and then,
Something happens you least expect...
Something magical...
Something just..."Right!"
Nothing is wrong...
It's just that, you dunno what's the meaning...
Take a deep breath,
and you will see what other people can't see...
Something is lost you said,
No, it's not,
it's always there, just that, you are too afraid to admit it...
When the right time has come,
You'll be the luckiest person in life...

*Ditujukan kepada rakan2 yg bercinta diluar sana... Fikirkanlah... :3 ( next entry will be discussing about this topic in BM, so dont worry if you dont understand)

Lumrah Kehidupan...

Sejak Kebelakangan ni, sy punya entry asyik dlm BI jer,
So, nak selang-selikan semula mcm dulu2,
So entry kali ni dlm BM, ok...
Baru2 ni sy ada terbaca satu cerita,
sedih la kiranya,
tapi apa nak buat,
ini la kita namakan sebagai hidup,
kalu mendatar, x best ar...

Ada seorang budak pompuan yg buta,
hidup dia seakan-akan x bermakna,
segala keyakinannya terbatas akibat matanya buta,
dia tiada rakan,
dia hidup keseorangan,
setiap hari dia asyik nak membunuh diri,
cuma kudratnya lemah untuk menentang kekuasaan Tuhan,
setiap tindakannya x bjaya...
Pada suatu hari,
dlm keadaannya yg meraba2 utk berjalan,
dia terlanggar seseorang,
budak lelaki itu termanggu bila dia tau yg dia buta,
perasaan marah itu menjadi simpati,
maka dia ajak bdak pompuan ini makan.
Dari hari itu, mereka sering berjumpa,
bersama, dan maka terbitlah perasaan cinta.
Bdk pompuan berhasrat nak melihat wajah lelaki kesayangannya itu,
suatu hari nanti, kalau Tuhan izinkan.
Hari demi hari,
hubungan yg baik itu bertukar menjadi badai yg melanda,
si pompuan ni mintak utk dia lupakannya,
dia buta, dan x dpt menjaganya suatu hari nanti bila tua.
Budak lelaki x kisah,
dia sanggup lakukan apa saja utk org yg dia syg.
bdak pompuan itu menangis dan mencerca diri sendiri,
dia sial, dia buta, dia bodoh sebab jatuh cinta,
dia xda hak utk musnahkan hidup org...
semuanya gara2 dia buta.
BEberapa hari lepas tu,
permohonan utk mendapatkn mata dari penderma telah berjaya,
ad penderma sanggup memberi mata padanya,
dia berasa sungguh gembira dan memberitahu bdak lelaki itu,
bdak lelaki pon turut gembira...
Bdak pompuan kata dia ingin menatap wajah lelaki tu selama-lamanya,
Hari operation pon tiba dan semuanya bjalan lancar,
orang pertama yg dia ingin tatap adalah wajah lelaki itu,
Bdak pompuan itu terkejut,
rupa2nya budak lelaki itu pon buta juga,
Dia marah dan menghina bdak lelaki tersebut,
dia x mau hidup dgn org buta yg x bole menjaganya,
hati bdak lelaki itu hancur dan remuk,
hanya Tuhan saja tau apa yg dia rasa masa tu,
sebelum beredar,
dia mghadiahkan bunga ros, kek mini dan sekeping kad kepada bdak pompuan itu.
ini la hidup, kita x selalu dpt apa yg kita harapkan...
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Dalam Kad itu tertulis:

SXXXXX,

Saya tahu yang awak xkan terima saya kalau saya buta,
Xpa, saya sedar,
Saya mau awak bahagia,
itu sahaja,
kalau awak tidak mau hadiah2 hari jadi awak tu,
buangkan saja,
tapi jagalah baik2 mataku itu, gunakannya sebaik mungkin....
Mr. AXXXX.

This is life...

Ada org kata:
Yesterday was a history,
Today is a story,
Tomorrow is a mistery...

Tapi bagi aku:
Yesterday was a tragedy,
Today is an agony,
Tomorrow will be a misery...
For now, thats what I feel... maybe it'll change one day...

I love a segment of thoughts I get from a TV series, It says:
For every being cursed with self-awareness,
There remains the unanswerable question,
Who am I?
We struggle to find meaningful connection to one another,
We are a caring friend,
The loving father,
The doting mother,
The protected child,
We fight and we love,
In the hope that somehow,
Together,
We can understand our significance in the universe,
But in the end,
No one can share our burden,
Each of us alone must answer the question,
Who am I?
What does it mean to be alive?
And in the vast infinity of time,
How do I matter?

Bila difikirkan balik,
setiap perkara pasti ada sebabnya,
Kadang-kadang kita rasa kita malang,
Kita rasa kita sial...
Hakikatnya?
Nasib kita sebenarnya terlalu baik,
cuma kita x reti nak hargainya...
Bayangkan lah,

Bila kita terlalu banyak kerja utk dibuat,
Kita terlupa yg ramai lagi di luar sana yg mnganggur,
Bila kita terpaksa belajar lebih masa,
Kita terlupa diluar sana ramai x bpluang nak teruskan pelajaran,
Bila kita pesan mee goreng, x sedap dan kita buang,
Kita terlupa yang budak2 di Bosnia kelaparan,
Bila kita dapat peti sejuk sebagai hadiah,
Kita terlupa yg ramai lagi yg x merasai nikmatnya perkakas elektrik.

Tapi kenapa?
Tahap apakah baru boleh nak kita rasa puas dgn apa yg kita ada?
Sampai bilakah?
Masih mencari...
Dan jawapannya, cuma kita sendiri yg bole nak jawab.


P/s:
For some of you, you faced my agony,
I'm sorry to push it to you,
I know it's not your burden to share,
You have the rights to hate and dislike me,
But I don't have any other choices,
Because,
It's a necessary evil...