Rain and Bow

Looking into the uncertain yet mysterious sky,
A rainbow told me,
"Still remember the promises?"
The ambiance was silent and the evening sky was cloudy too.
Searching around for an oxygen breathing mask and I can't find any.
I can't breathe. The air is killing me.
Just like I can't speak. My words are killing me too.
Every truth that I speak distracts you away.
Time is an effective healer for the wounds I guess,
Or perhaps it is the poison that deteriorates our healths.
You're leaving, and I know it is easy for you.
You said dependence, is our biggest obstacle.
Even if there is no moon around it, the earth will still rotate and orbit at its position.
Just that it looses the beautiful nature satellite,
in which it depends on, to light up the gloomy night.
And if you're really leaving,
please don't destroy the pictures of memories that we took together,
and pretend that I already know the reasons why.

Last hamsty for this sem: :')

P/s: Maybe this is the last for hamster. Next time we breed something else. Wanna join me? :)

Relax and think about it...

Recently I walked alone a lot, just to observe the world by myself.
It's not either that I isolate myself from other friends or they isolate me,
I just wanna be alone for a while, that's it.
I promised myself to go to the Pasar Tani on Thursday and finally I found a time for this.
Last Thursday, an ordinary weather,
I dragged my reluctant feet there.
From what I saw from my last visit before that,
It was totally merrier than before.
and I saw a lot of things.
Happy, tired, desiring, lonely, in-love and so on portrayed on the faces of people there.
Some of you must be thinking,
"Why the heck were you wasting your time there?
Go back and study, you think you're so clever is it?"
I just wanna tell, this is how I perceive people around me. I learn from what I see.

I saw a young girl was crying in the middle of that place,
I can't understand why, so did her parents.
They gave her a balloon, she didn't want it,
They gave a sausage stick, still she rejected it.
Her parents was furious,
They seemed to be coming from an educated family.
The way they dressed up showed their status as well.
The mother was mad at the poor kid, still wondering what's wrong with her.
She gave everything but the kid was still very stubborn, crying non-stop.
At the time when she almost lost her temper,
An old lady who sells the clothes around came,
she was and ordinary person who sells clothes, came and talked to the parents.
With their arrogance and self-regard attitude,
She said:"Eh, mak cik nak sibuk apa? Ni anak saya, tau la saya nak jaga..."
Old lady with her kelantanese slang:" Ye la anak mu, tapi dok nangis tu tak kesian ke?"
Disregard of that arrogant young woman, the old lady picked up the poor child.
The child stopped to cry.
And then she put her down, looking at the young woman
and said:"Anak mu ni penat asyik mu bawak jalan2, dia nak mu dukung dia..."
She turned around and walked away back to her stall, leaving the two speechless.

Usually Dr. Lee will ask me, "So Daniel, what is the moral value that you learned from today's trip?" but this time he's not around. I have to ask myself, laughing silently under the scorching hot sun.

Moral of the day:
Even though you are rich, clever and powerful, it doesn't mean that you know everything. So, don't ever think that, if you are superior in term of status and knowledge than the others, their advices are useless and their helps are worthless. You may need some of them some times. Instead of calling them, "penyibuk", "jaga tepi kain", "lan si", "bodoh" and so on, try la CERMIN DIRI you SENDIRI... If you are too good, people won't offer their advice and help to the PATHETIC you... If you still wont listen, only one beautiful word to describe you, BODOH SOMBONG!

-What is it?-

The effects that it brings are menacing,
It can change a smile to a cry and vice versa.
Most of the time, it creates joy to us in its presence,
but, in its absence, we live in the LIFE of misery.

Most of people have it in them but it's hard for them to show it.
They fear other people will jealous and create havoc to snatch it away from them.
This is because, once you have it,
you'll feel like you're the king of the mountain,
the queen of the sea,
or even the winner amongst other warriors who fight for it.

That is when you have it,
but once you loose it,
you are despicable,
you are a looser and even worse,
many would choose to end their lives.
But is it worth? Can't you just find another one? is it replaceable?
and WHAT IS IT actually?

The answer lies in you~

~Still breathing~

The chilling weather,
the cold gust,
and the freezing drizzles outside the hostel,
portraying what's inside someone's heart.
Dilemma, is his royal companion at the moment.
People are saying things around him but most of the time, he's not listening.
His attentions are thrown to somewhere over the vast sky.
Hundreds of advices he gets from friends,
but still, the decision is too hard to make.
Maybe not all problems will meet their solutions easily,
and not all love stories ended like those of Sleeping Beauty and Cinderella's.
Love story?
Can this be a true fantasy?
Still, the love is there but yet undisturbed.
Shame?
of people around us?
I will if I forget to wear my pants in the public.
Busy?
the best reason to keep love at bay?
Maybe the best acceptable answer to all the questions in my head.

A sensible quote that you gave me:
We enjoy warmth because we have been cold.
We appreciate light because we have been in darkness.
By the same token, I enjoy and appreciate my LIFE because of you love me .

Egoistic and demanding, that must be what others will think.
Maybe because we still believe that LIFE is too precious too be spoiled.
Maybe we still believe that the magic is still in the air,
or just maybe, many more...
Despite of all the good things that we believed in,
the time and the distance are killing...

Rabbits, Chickens, Birds and Fish, they are the loyal friends that keep silence no matter what I said.... :3

I'll miss them, I think...

Last Thursday, I went to see my lecturer to settle my place to do my industrial training.
In fact, I'm one of the most choosy person in UMK can ever have.
All my friends easily accept their places which were being decided by faculty.
And I, due to my intentions of going back Sabah to see someone,
being stubborn and fight for the place that I chosen which is not approved by Dean.
I talked to my lecturer about my keen interest of involving into the field of marine and also forestry, either one and it is not possible since my course of study is totally diverge from those.
I kept myself silence and he gave me a list of Aquaculture company's list since I like fish as much as he does.
During that time, I was kinda not in the right mood and remained silence.

Then he said:"You know Daniel, why you need to make your life so difficult, just go la to the company that we choose for you and it is a good one."

I said:"But sir, that is not what I want..."

He said:"Life is like this, you cannot always go against the law, you should just go with the flow, it is like you choosing a girlfriend la, why you need to choose the one that is faraway and being troubled by her. Just choose a near one la, will make your life easier and happier than now what. Beautiful or not is the second thing to consider. Nowadays, girl before married to you they are willing to do anything but when you married to her, I think you are the one who's gonna cook, clean the baby's waste, wash the clothes and so on... "

Then, another lecturer who sat next to him answered:"Aik, macam ada experience aja.... "

The three of us burst into laughs and get carried away by things that life gives... I will miss this scenario during my LI later. I know I would, because there is no other people that willing to share funny things about life as open as they do...

A random pic for today~ We were in UTM semarak



We were here, we gonna miss this place where we first met... this is where we call UMK Pengkalan Chepa.... (this pic i took it from SA)
And the next time we meet, it'll be another whole new adventure awaits...in a different place... and a whole new chapter in each history line of our lives...

Mencintai tak semestinya memiliki...

It's been a while this post is empty.
Being busy a while, lots of things to do these days.
Being caved under pressure, and so on.
Scolded by my "boss" for some silly mistakes I made,
Being depised as "stupid" and so on...
In these processes, I showed my unprofessional self,
Lepas geram at friends and juniors who helped me a lot, and I know some of them must be very mad at me.
It's ok, I accept all your comments and dislikes about me,
I'm sorry for my misbehave, anyway I'm just a normal guy. I'll learn from all these.
Back to the topic
*nak guna BM la*

Dalam tak sedar, dah lebih daripada 2 tahun berada di Universiti,
kita masih lagi menunggu jawapan jujur dari hati masing2,
bila saja melihat rakan2 yg lain di FB mula menonjolkan hubungan mereka,
kadang2 terasa mcm cemburu dgn sifat toleransi yg ada pada mereka.
tetapi kita pula seakan-akan tiada kesefahaman,
pada bicara, katanya sayang, namun hakikat cuma di bibir sahaja.
jarak mungkin pemisah, namun kita tetap tidak berusaha utk mendekatkan hati...
kalau org lain boleh kenapa tidak kita?
bila masa aku perlukan kamu, kamu busy di duniamu.
x cukup waktukah sehingga 5 minit pun tiada utkku?
mungkin betul seperti yg orang kata mencintai mungkin x smestinya memiliki.

p/s: if u see this, pls call me... i cant contact ur numbr~

The whisper

Voices in my head,
please shut up,
for one moment I thought a friend called me by name,
I turned but no one at my back...

Voices in my head,
please slow down,
I can't even sleep,
While the night was so warm and the bed was so inviting...

Voices in my head,
please be polite,
help me than destroy me,
I need more positives than negatives to face my days...

Voices in my head,
Rilex,
When the time is right,
I'll tell everyone about you,
I'll show the whole world your whispering desires...

Above is a HDR picture, what is HDR? Btw, that pic i took from internet, just for show... :3