Dun Try to solve the world's problem

Life is not just eat, study and sleep.
Or even sit in the room, looking for virtual online friends.
Life is more about how we express ourself to the world.
What you do to the people around you is what you get back from them.
Some people will lie to save their ass. Or even kill to satisty their vengeful hunger.
But what's the real meaning of being alive?
Is it to have world's fortune?
To have the world's most beautiful wife?
The biggest house in the area?
or even the highest title in the community?
Some people already accomplished all their objectives above. But why are they still living their lives?
There are something about life and the world that we can't explain.
But only one thing about human that I understand is that,
We are not easily being satisfied, we eager for more,
Once we have better, we want the best,
once we have one, we want two and so on.
But then, until when all these whispering desires will ever stop to haunt us?
And today, I learned a simple answer for all these matters.
Which is, Don't try to solve the world's problem, because they will never be solved by only you.
I hope you get this meaning.

Life is not easy

Kali ni, Joe nak buat entry dlm bahasa m'sia lak. Dah lama x buat. Takut lupa diri.
Cakap tentang kehidupan dan warna2 yg menyerikannya,
x smuanya indah bagi semua orang.
Ada yang matanya terbuka sejak kecil terus melihat kemewahan,
ada yang terpaksa hidup dlm perit maung yg bukan dipinta.
Namun smua matlamat kehidupan ialah sama, iaitu berjaya dlm hidup.



Joe nak tumpukan pada mereka yg mpunyai kehidupan yg kurang bernasib baik sebabnya Joe pun bukan la orang yg hidup dlm kemewahan. Masa kecil2 lagi, mama slalu ckp, "kita orang miskin, mak xda apa2 yg boleh bagi Joe macam budak2 lain. Nanti bila Joe besar, Joe berjaya, Joe boleh dapatkan sendiri apa yang Joe maukan. Yang penting skarang ni mama nak tgk Joe rajin belajar, itu dah cukup."



Hidup ini xlah smudah yg org lain sangkakan. Usaha dan kecekalan itu seharusnya menjadi pedoman hidup. Dalam 2 tahun berada di tempat org, Joe mulai merasa betapa susahnya hidup sendiri. Duit kena jaga sendiri, bujet kena kawal. Tapi ini smua btul2 menjadikan diri Joe lebih matang. Sifat yg terlalu bergantung pada org lain hilang serta merta. Joe rela susahkan diri daripada susahkan org lain, sbbnya, Joe tau, biar lah Joe sakit2 dahulu, senang2 kemudian.
Jalan hidup setiap org berbeza, dan apa yg kita buat sekarang lah yg menjadi penentu masa depan kita. Biar lah org pandang hina pada kemiskinan kita, jijik untuk berkawan dengan kita. Yang penting kita ikhlas pada setiap org wlaupon org x hargai kita.

Soal hidup, kita sendiri tentukan. Sebab itulah, kita kena tetap dgn pendirian kita. Biar apa kata org, asalkan kita sedar diri kita ni siapa. Material dan kemewahan hidup x kekal. Tapi itu lah yg kita kejar, Joe pon begitu. Tapi xda benda yg dtg melayang maupun bergolek kalau kita x berusaha gigih. klau hanya mau senang, baik x payah buat apa2. Kalau ambil jalan mudah ataupun jalan kotor, sedarlah akibatnya nanti. Skarang mungkin bukan masanya utk sedar kerana menyesal bukan selalunya dahulu.



Kat sini, Joe nak bagitau kat smua rakan2 ataupon sesapa saja yg mungkin mengalami nasib yg sama. Jgn mudah putus asa, biar kita terluka sekarang, jgn kita merana kemudian. Smua manusia mempunyai peluang yg sama, Tuhan maha adil dlm smuanya. Jangan mudah percaya pada mobiliti sosial yg singkat. Sebaliknya berusaha lebih. Bila sudah berjaya, jgn lupa pula pada yg susah, bantulah sekiranya mampu. Asal usul sendiri kena pegang, sejarah silam seharusnya menjadi sempadan kehidupan agar x silap lagi. Biarlah kita membuat kesilapan pada mulanya, sbb ianya akan mjadi pengajaran pada tindakan seterusnya.

P/s: Blog ini ditujukan kepada insan2 yang pernah memberi semangat pada diri ini secara langsung ataupun secara x langsung. Terima kasih. Everybody needs inspiration. You're my inspiration.


*Minum lah susu soya sambil membaca blog ini*

Anecdote of 31st May

31st May every year, sounds like just another ordinary day for most Malaysians,

but then, it is the merry-making season for a clutch of ethnic in Borneo Island. The Ibans. The symbolic of this festival is showing that the ending of padi harvesting season by the Iban people in the rural area. Another festival to celebrate, so what? Malaysian people, mainly from the peninsular never experienced this festival due to the fact that this festival is happening only in Sarawak, the biggest state in Malaysia. If you want to know more about Gawai Dayak. This is the rite channel. I'll share some of my valuable yet authentic experience about this celebration.

Just like any other celebration, it is a time where the family members will gather, regardless of far or near, at their parent's house to enjoy this moment. This is the time for them to learn about each other, their progression in life, their new life saga if exist.

This is the time where u get to see your beautiful nephews and nieces.

Family members from young to old, shed their joyful sweats to help each other preparing food on the table. The varieties of the food are ranging from indigenous Iban's Ayam Pansuh, Chinese Thick Soup, Daging Kambing Masak Hitam, Fish Curry, and the list of cuisine goes on. The food symbolizes different culture in my family due to assimilation of 1 Malaysian ethnics. Eldest aunt married a Chinese, my mum n dad are Ibans and my uncle married a Malay.

Helping each other to accomplish mission... (The picture shows the making of Ketupat, glutinous rice packed into nicely interwoven leaves)

The rewards for the tired moment together would be mouth-watering dishes of all range of food.
(My favourite food, Kerang... mmmm) :X

This is the time to be jolly!!! Makan-makan...

After the feast, the family members will gather to wait for the midnite. This is the best moment of all. Inside rumah panjang or long house there are about 20 other families living in it. At this moment, waiting for the midnite, they will sit at the ruai, a vast area connecting houses in rumah panjang. Games and competitions will be held by the Tuai rumah, head of the long house, to kill the time. Winners will recieve hampers or even cash. Children will find this is the best moment to see other friends from next houses. During this period also, men and women will perform traditional Iban dance called ngajat. Other than that, the search for the most beautiful young lady to hold the title Kumang, beauty in local language continues.

Kids today, leaders tomorrow. Give them the right input, and you can get another dedicated person like our prime minister, Datuk Seri Najib Abdul Razak.

Cloaked in traditional costume, she's like the ruby of the house... (guess who is she... if correct I treat a lunch... :X... no further comment)

When the clock points at 12.00a.m., the Tuai rumah will hit a traditional instrument called Tawak, resembles to the Malay's gong. All families of the houses will gather at his ruai to drink air pengayu, a tradition which to keep the families always happy and protected. The drink is not to quench the thirst. The family members will take a little sip and then throw it away. They will wish for health and wealth for this coming years will be doubled the one before.

Young people come together to know each other...


And during this time, another meal!!! Lolz... After the drinking of air pengayu all the families will be treated with food prepared by the ladies... each house will send one representative to cook food for malam air pengayu, They come to the rumah panjang's dapur to cook together.

After the feast, the families will return back to their houses. The celebration of Gawai Dayak do not stop here. The next day, early in the morning or even after the last nite feast, friends and families can pay visits to their relatives. This will continue untill 2.00 p.m the next day, which is 1st of June. At this moment, there will be another ritual or tradition need to be accomplished. It is what the local called miring. Miring is very crucial in Iban tradition. This is to pay their respect towards their ancestors and people before them. They hope for blessing and guidance in this ritual. The famous Iban quotation known world-wide by the Malaysian is "Gayu Guru Gerai Nyamai" or can be simply translated as long life, healthy and wealthy. During this ritual, the head of each house will come to every house to perform miring. They will make something called piring, to be offered to their ancestors. Piring is mainly a plate with full of Iban traditional food-like items such as hendai, keresang, tumpi, kapuk, buah pinang, daun sirih, serdik and so on.

The left are hendai, tumpi and penyaram. While right is called sarang semut.


and many more...


Man of every house will come to one of the ruai, then the ritual will start when the owner said so, in this case is my father.


at the end of the miring ceremony, one of the man will do berbiau, swinging the chicken around and reciting something.


in the end, the chicken being used for the ceremony will be culled.

The ceremony ends and the piring made by the man will be put at the higher place of the ruai. A brush like thingy is put, showing that this house has done the miring ceremony.

Gawai is not totally over yet. After this ceremony, the visit paying activities will be continued. Just like the "Chap Goh Mei" in Chinese New Year celebration, Gawai Dayak also have Ngiling Bidai. It means the end of the celebration. The last day of Gawai Dayak will be solely depends on the Tuai rumah. He will name a day to end to celebration. Usually will be one week after 31st May. Again, Gawai can be diverge into a few celebrations, Gawai Dayak is celebrated by all Dayak. Then, Gawai Antu is celebrated by a rumah panjang if there have been a death before the celebration of Gawai Dayak. Other Gawai are Gawai lelabi, Gawai Gagai and so on.

Anyone who are interested to see and feel the sensation that gawai dayak brings to the Iban, you should come to Sarawak and visit long houses. Feel the real life of it rather than only heard from people. Get ready to be more Malaysian.

Gawai!!!!

I'm still having fun here, i'll tell tales about it in next entry!!!
hahaha~ hahahaa~ hahaha~

-What a wonderful world-

Instead of looking for the differences that make us better than the others,
why don't we look for the similarities we all have,
we share the beautiful moon-lite at nite,
we share the beautiful deep-blue-velvet-carpet-like sky together,
and we walk on the same green-red earth...
I think thats matter...

Regardless of how good you are in your academics,
it doesn't really show yourself that much,
but what shows is that how the way people perceived you from they way you treated them,
doesn't mean you are the head of everything,
makes all your decisions correct,
sometimes, even the road-sweeper can think better than you,
even the dumb will talk better words,
just that, u need to give them the chances to project themselves,
instead of saying NO to all other opinions,
take a deep breath and listen to others,
maybe sounds incorrect to you but at least u listen,
you know, LISTEN to what they said...

In this life,
I met a lot of good people and brilliant they are,
all are topscorers and stars of the class,
my secondary school was the most competitive one,
even the 10th position and the 1st position will not make much differences in marks,
all are above the average of A,
I miss them much...
and now they all pursuing their own dreams...
guess what, I'm proud to be their friend.

Landed on the other side of the earth,
I found out that people are different,
competition is always the priority,
their joy will be how stupid their opponents are,
hillarious but ironic,
we want people to be stupid,
if they are, then who will be the one who guides us when we are stupid?

Think at the bright side,
we can enjoy the fruits of joy together after all our hardworks together,
since the orchard of success is not a self-owned territory,
don't you think it is sweeter?

What a wonderful world we have,
we have expert,
we have followers,
we have opinions givers,
we have quitters,
we have lovers,
we have killers,
we have Lady Gaga,
and we have some more...

What I want to tell here,
is that, don't just judge a magazine by its hot cover,
instead, go through the tabloids first before you trust the gossips,
people are different,
their way of thinking are different too,
don't think that all people will go toward your direction if you pointed them to,
don't think that I'm a feelingless robot too,
because not all roses are red,
and not all candies are sweet...

My favourite quote:

"I understand your circurmstances, but SOMEPEOPLE just don't!!!"
by Dr. Lee


P/s: Happy hoildays to all...

~Image-in-nation~

Ever since I take in things positively,
it's been manifesting my thoughts,
the more I try to resist, the more it shows...
At first I thought it was a guardian angel,
what do angels do? healing and bring good things rite?
until one day, the angel i thought it is, becoming over and out of control,
I see the ugly reality,
I see the disapointing fantasy,
I see the haunting past,
but I see as well the uncertain future...
befriended with Dark since the day at the beach...

I thought Dark was a friend,
He fills my life with the truth I love to listen, no more childish thoughts in my head,
and I dun even know how to make people laugh, or even can hardly smile even i tried to,
Dark shows up when the gloomy nite falls,
Telling me what to do next if Im at the crossroads...
"You are far better than this and what are you doing in a place like this?"
Isolation, Hatred and Selfishness sometimes come as one...
That was not me at all,
he accompanies me under the sickly moonlight showering the dying earth,
he tells me not to be weaklings because I'm born to be different...

During first few days of the studyweek,
life was just great, good dreams from 4pm - 7pm,
I was so healthy that I forgot about Dark...
Maybe he's mad at me,
just a few days ago, I saw him again,
and I do realize something,
he can only show up when Im sad, mad or unsatisfied,
and this time different outfit,
the robe was ferocious black, he has it long...
His used to be feathered wings are now becoming mantle with smaller wing-like projection,
He looks different, and very different until I don't even know who he is... evil,
now, if he shows, Im in pain,
my head burns, my lungs screaming for air,
not long, then, he'll disappear... and he can do other things,
He can now take over my body,
slip into me when Im emotionally down,
manifest my body into his control...
scary rite? hahahaha~ funny it is...
my roomates are facing the worst nightmares,
sometimes they'll see me in weird condition,
or sometimes are having extreme heart-hurting words from me... funny~ seriously...
Now Im taking medicines, im fine ok... just need some more rest,
cos im extremely tired, preparing the battle with Dark...
till now, im still looking for the leash for this dog,
as saying goes,
once you kill a cow, you need to make a burger...
once you raise ur sword, someone has to die on it...

or maybe the answer is in me,
if i want to end him, mybe i need to end myself as well....

p/s: dont understand? just let it be.... :3

...Silly Me...

Just can't believe that I'm still falling for these same mistakes,
I thought I can free my self from this living emotional torture chamber,
well indeed I just can't... I guess I'm just nobody in their eyes... Whatever I do just can't get their attention, even for a second...
I thought Im just being immature to think like that... huh...
What is it wrong with me until the one I cared most in life to not even take a full glimspe at my real life? And am I wanted their attention so much? I didn't get it when I was small?
Everytime I call and projecting my predicaments to them, the only word that they'll say is "OK"...
Then, the sentence about my life is lost in the thick air... and the sentence will be "I'm working right now..."
"Dad, Im having my final exam..."
"Really? Don't worry, you are as usual.. now, can you check the price for the phone that I asked you to?"
"I'm studying..."
"It's for your little brother, don't be selfish, poor him..."
"OK... err Dad... can I get a new..."
"Not now, I'm working, call you later..." *tut..tut..tut...*
yes sir.....

To stop thinking of all immature things like that, I tried to work extra hours,
doing all the things... trying to make myself busy with works,
eventually I love to do these things, they'll make me busy and stop thinking of other things...
working with hot-tempered person yet bossy... I just love it so much... Because nobody ever mad at me like that...
but sometimes, when we trying to protect other people, they just being annoyed with the fact that they are protected, nothing seems to be right...
It hurts me a lot when someone who really willing to sacrifice for me becoming an exhibition 'thing' for the sake of some other people... and I don't want the same things happen to any other of them... Just because it's hard for me to say "NO", doesn't mean that they are the one who should take these unnecessary evils... some said it's ok... "think of the bright said"... maybe you're right...
or maybe I just overprotective? Just because I'd gone throught hell doesn't mean that they don't have to feel the same way? it's a life experience... it's like a training ground to life the future life... what a selfish me.... its my fault to manja-kan them...

All these push and pull, internal and external things, make a person's life interesting. But at the same time, it'll cause you your health... well, it's nothing actually, just don't take in too much thought, scrumbling sehingga you dunno how to susun ayat to talk with people... @.@

Mode:

Walk in the real life, stop fantasying, Angels are not exist to help you...