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There is one guy,
he was born with his twin brother,
however, his twin brother died on the day they were born to the world,
because his (the guy's) umbilical cord surrounded him,
causing of his suffocation which lead to his death...
This guy never know that he has a deceased twin brother until one day,
he overhead his parents' small chat...
Beared with this pain in his life,
he keeps on putting the fault on his shoulder,
and other people also accused him for the fault,
the world is so dark, too dark for friends and other people to approach or see him,
he loves his own world, living among the non-living things,
alone in the room, drawing of a beautiful future, pencils and papers are his ideas,
or being outside in the wild,
talking to animals seems to be far better than talking to human,
humans only know how to accuse people,
they never try to understand the little boy's thought,
but the animals, they maybe dunno what he said,
but they seems to be sympathy and understand..
is he happy? whats his biggest sin to feel this pain?
whenever this little guy trying to approach people,
people tend to see his past,
people will stay away from him because he is the bad-luck bringer, the disease carrier.
whoever stay too close to him will suffer bad luck,
or even worse,
die...!
Even his family has to send him away.
Send him to unknown people,
giving him a chance to see outside world,
how cruel a life is,
living with a new foster sister, she is different,
she knows how pain this life is,
she teached him how to handle people thoughts,
she teached him that problematic people has a cure,
and the answer is lie in our own soul...in what we believe...
living with her was an ultimate valuable experience,
he faced difficult, he lived in poverty,
but that won't make his heart to stop believing in better future,
every morning wake up at 4, going on foot to the school,
sometimes if got extra money, he'll take bus...
seeing other kids with parents accompany to school,
seeing school as a playground and friends making place to them,
He is the only kind in his school...
he speaks their language,
he learns their way of doing thing,
his dogma is to be someone in his life,
to change peope's perception , to change the world to a better place to live.
His foster sister knows that he can see other things that people can't see,
she said she feels it too...
he never believes in fantasy... he never believes in ridiculous things...
until one day, he saw a guy almost same age with him standing under the road light,
it was like late in the nite,
something unsual about the guy,
he seems familiar to him... after the rain stops, the guy under the light dissapear as well...
could it be him?
he furthers his study...
here, his life started to change,
people feels his presence,
people started to talk to him, started to be friend with him...
for a while, he forgot his real intension and dogma,
he felt in love, he started to appreciate someone special in his life,
he's happier, he's not as depress as before...
Having to live in the world full of friends,
having her to love and cherish,
sometimes he noticed that people are having selfish intension of approaching him,
but her presence neutralized all the bad thoughts...
he's happy...
they promised, they vowed, they responsible for their actions,
she took him out of his dark world...
she loves him as much as he loves her back...
but not too long, she clarified that she loved wrong...
this pain, they have to share, his family doesnt like her,
they poisoned her, and she left him...
next day, he recieved a phone call, she felt from building and broke her left arm,
he cared, he shows his concern, but this is not their destiny,
heartbroken, he decided to leave the cursed land, everything,
his future as a med student and so on...
those memories are the darkest one,
a pain that hurts as much as the first one,
but he used to be happy,
he knows the word happy and he felt it before,
he loves the feelings... but, can he feel the same way again?
he keeps seeing the guy under the road light... but he can't see his face...
they talked, he felt a warm feeling, as if it is a big brother who talks to his brother...
but didnt say much, he warned, he said to him that he needs to be ready...
for what? for what? he didnt answered... he just lost... or is it an illusion?
he tried to find the answer,
he wish he can get it now...
but that guy just doesnt turn up...

That day, on the beach, he went to the beach with his friends...
he waited for him to come, it was raining lightly...
he has the premonition to meet him,
the guy showed himself, he warned again... becareful, there is something else here,
but he doesnt understand a thing,
the moment he turned away, the guy vanished...
wierd... but why? whats the answer? from what?
"Am I going to bring another bad luck?" he thought... pls not now...
he scared to loose his friends who were enjoying themselves at the moment...
he tried to go as faraway from them...
try to isolate himself from them...
try to hide his worried... if this thing wants something,
maybe it is him, not them,
he scared... so scare... it is another pain he feels...
that feeling is the same as the previous incident,
he lost his uncle and it was a real pain...
to see a family ruptures in front of his eyes,
the good people die...
but people will never believe him,
little do he cares of what people think about him...
he isolates his life from others,
make others going away from him... like wat his past did...
maybe thats the best way to protect other people from something...
he's not trying to be hero or even a weirdo...
but maybe he can change the future to a better place for everyone...
he saw some of the future, but uncertain whether that will be the future or is it just a fantasy...
because they are just too good to be true...
at the moment, he's living between reality and fantasy...
the door to his world is always open, he can go in and out as he pleased...
but he chooses to believe,
he chooses to have faith, that he is special, not cursed...