I try to breathe...

Taylor Swift - Breathe

I see your face in my mind as I drive away
'Cause none of us thought it was gonna end that way
People are people and sometimes we change our minds
But it's killing me to see you go after all this time

Mmm, mmm, mmm, mmm, mmm, mmm, mmm, mmm
Mmm, mmm, mmm, mmm, mmm, mmm, mmm, mmm

Music starts playin' like the end of a sad movie
It's the kinda ending you don't really wanna see
'Cause it's tragedy and it'll only bring you down
Now I don't know what to be without you around

And we know it's never simple, never easy
Never a clean break, no one here to save me
You're the only thing I know like the back of my hand

And I can't breathe
Without you, but I have to
Breathe
Without you, but I have to

Never wanted this, never want to see you hurt
Every little bump in the road I tried to swerve
People are people and sometimes it doesn't work out
Nothing we say is gonna save us from the fall out

And we know it's never simple, never easy
Never a clean break, no one here to save me
You're the only thing I know like the back of my hand

And I can't breathe
Without you, but I have to
Breathe
Without you, but I have to

It's two a.m., feelin' like I just lost a friend
Hope you know it's not easy, easy for me
It's two a.m., feelin' like I just lost a friend
Hope you know this ain't easy, easy for me

And we know it's never simple, never easy
Never a clean break, no one here to save me, oh

I can't breathe
Without you, but I have to
Breathe
Without you, but I have to
Breathe
Without you, but I have to

I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry
I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry

Listened to the song, my tears drop...
Sometimes our pocket are filled with money but our hearts are empty...
We tried to be as happy as possible but it is just not enough...
When we are alone, we forgot...
That we still have HIM who always ready and be there to hear us...
When our friends no longer there to support us,
We cried and we forgot,
That we still have HIM who always listen and understand every word we said...
But when we are happy, the first one we forgot is HIM...Why?

I know I'm not a good person in this world, I've tried all means to be happy but I can't find it until one day... My heart finally respoken to me...
I begged for HIS forgiveness... I cried for HIS guidance... I knelt for HIS love...
I've may have lost someone important in my life...
but I still have HIM for me to believe and to give my soul to...
I wanna thank HIM for sending me lots of friends from annoying one to caring one...
No matter who they are, they are all my friends who I always trust in everything...

Essence of Raya

RAYA dek Danel Si Gilak2 ni..

Lemang itu apa ya?

Untuk Sapa2 yg nda pernah nemu lemang itu apa, termasuk diri saya ini, mari kita hayati siket2 cam ne mauk bolah lemang…

Komponen yang ada dalam Lemang = Buluh lemang, Beras pulut, Santan kelapa, Daun pisang, Sabut kelapa

Caranya Camtuk:

1) Cari buluh yg sesuai utk lemang, saiz sederhana besar lengan miak dewasa

2) Pas ya gulung daun pisang, masuk nya dalam lemang

3) Isi ngan beras pulut separuh penuh

4) Penuhkan pula ngan santan sampai muncung buluh

5) Tudung la lemang kitak tadi ngan sabut maupun apa2 jak yg sesuai

6) Bakar la lemang tadi, sampai buluhnya kuning2 oren jadinya, mu ada bau wangi, masak da tu

TIPS: Bakar lemang selama 6 jam, Jaga api biar sekata.

Nak bakar lomang nih pun bukan senang, mak fren I cakap kena ada skillnya tersendiri... silap bakar alamatnya x beraya la jadinye... mana x nye, terbakar meriam buluh...

Oleh itu, bagi sapa2 yg main meriam buluh, kena main jauh2 dari orang yg bakar lemang... 1km pun xpa asalkan jauh...

ni la dia budak lemang yg professional gitu

Ketupat nya pulak banyak jenis bah, salah satunya ketupat beras... huhu apain?

Ketupat Beras:

Barang2 yg perlu ada utk buat ketupat nya adalah seperti berikut:

- Daun Palas/ Pucuk Kelapa

- Beras

- Air

Yang ini I sendiri pun x sempat nak merasa… Dengar kata rasanya meletup2 sedap gila, bila makan ngan RENDANG DAGING, RENDANG KERANG, RENDANG AYAM dan MASAK LOMAK PERUT…*mengalir-ngalir air liur, cam sungai Pahang derasnya*

nak bakar ketupat pun kena ada cara nya gitu... payah!

ADa banyak lagi menda nak kamek tulis tok tpi masa x cukup!!! next bolg ok...

Smile of a minoriti : Sweet but is it meaningful?

Life is all about giving and taking. But not all the things we give will be accepted by other people. It is not that hard to give and take but who will really put it at a high value and solemnly appreciates it?

Just a mere smile can please a sore heart. We only measure smiles from who they are from. If it is a smile from our superior, we reply it in a hypocrite way, just to make sure that we can get their attention and yet some benefits. But is it meaningful? It is actually depending on the individual’s perception. I would say some people can smile with a sweet notion and melt a frozen solid heart. Sweet and remarkable smiles are the perfect cure to any menacing predicament. A smile accompanied by the lips of an angel is the most valuable thing I would love to receive. Nowadays, it is damn hard to find a meaningful smile from just anybody. Every smile we put embedded with lust, envy and maybe anger.

Living in a new environment, a Joe has forgotten his value of smile. He was a cheerful guy with a smile on his face. Any encounter will be rewarded with his relaxing smile, neither friends nor foes. He was the center of girls’ attention and all people around him. That ‘was’ him…

Adaptation to a new living is hard core important. Indeed, the Joe changed a lot but unsure whether to the positive side or the negative side. His most important virtue is now everyone’s virtue: money and wealth. He changed and really has changed. The long valued asset is now dispersed in the deep ocean of materialistic. He smiled no more. He laughed no more. He is still the attention of the public with his intelligence but now not the crowd who enjoyed his angel face. They crowd him for his mind, they crowd him for benefits and they crowd him because they know he is a part of them too.

The Joe changed a lot… But how can this be? How can a joyful kind of guy drastically change his motto of life? It was all started in a fine Sunday morning. The Joe just arrived to a place he never went before. The culture is different, the people are different and the food is different too… It’s OK, he can easily adapt to it, he thought. He walked down the street with his heavy luggage to find his direction to his new study area. A girl passed by. The Joe tried to ask for direction, he smiled like a newborn baby but being ignored. The girl showed an expressionless face. Wondering if there is anything this wacko guy wanted from her… Oh yea… the direction… where is it my charming lady? She said there is no such thing as a free lunch; even to pee we need to pay as well though. He paused and got the notion there at that moment. People are no longer needing his curing yet relaxing smile but the “valuable paper” or money instead. From that day on, he changed and changed and changed! There is no longer Mr. nice guy from him… All nice to him would be MONEY!

Think carefully my people, before you smile at people... U may never know wat they want in return..... Hehehehe...... *Mr. Joe Smirks*

Science is nuts?

I would like to say science is a field that is crazily learned by people to disobey their normal nature. This is obviously because most of the people who choose science as their field of study are nuts. For instance, a doctor who suppose to cure his patient will cut a hole on his patient's body which is hurting him in the first place. There are some other nutty reasons too:

1) In the anatomy class, the lecturer was giving the SBH students a quiz. The students are required to draw the female reproducting system as complete as possible. A girl was scared because she hasn't prepare anything for the quiz and look down in despair.

Suddenly, one of the nutty SBH boy shouted : "Prof, She's cheating!"

2) During the chemistry class, a proton and a neutron were sitting at the back.

Neutron :" What happens to you bud, you look like a jackass?"

Proton : " I just got dumped by my electron girlfriends yesterday.."

Neutron :" You sure you are ok? Don't take drugs to release your charges though.. or else you become like me.."

Proton :" I'm fine, I'm positive!"

3) Two SBH boys were talking about their future career.

Ronny: " I wanted to be a highly respected goat Professor.. so that my mum will be proud of me.."

Donny: " I wanted to be a forensic policeman, I gotta find the 'bold guy' who spitts in my mum when my father wasn't at home!"

4) A nutty young couple from SBH chosen Africa to be their honeymoon destination. They stayed in a hotel which was at the moment a sexual criminal staying next to their room. The couple was about to enjoy their first night when the wive asked her husband to buy a condom. The husband put on his clothes and quickly went out to search for the condom, leaving the room dark and the door unlock. He went into a shop which sells condoms as follow:

- black 20 cent

- blue 30 cent

- white 1 dollar

However, the husband forgot to bring his wallet and luckily there is a twenty cent in his pocket. Meanwhile, in the hotel, the criminal sneaked into the room and....

The husband came back put on his new bought thing and start doing some actions. The wive felt very weird because her husband was still energetic to do it again after the first run. Well, she doesn't care, in fact, enjoying it to have such horse-powered husband, she thought.

Nine months later, the couple was having a cute African-looked baby. The wive wondered why their child doesn't resembled his father.

Then, the husband said :" Luckily I lacked of another 10 cent, if not our baby would have turned blue!"

5) SBH students were having their class in BK5 at night. There was a rumour saying that there was a ghost living there. After the class, everybody will as fast as they could to get into room, except for a girl. She finished her biometry works then she will return room. The ghost came out from her hidding in order to scare the left alone girl.

Ghost said:" Hey little girl, look at me... I'm legless... I'm legless.... woooooo..."

The girl frustatingly striped off her clothes and said: " oh hey, ghost missy... look at me... I'm boobless... I'm boobless...."

6) A hen breed by SBH students is laying its eggs. Then, it says: "Can you let me rest for a while, I'm EGGS-hausted!"

7) A little boy asked his brother, a SBH student a question but he asked him to ask their mum because he is busy with assignments.

Little boy said: " Mom, what is sex actually?"

Mom: " Oh honey, you are too small to understand it..."

Little boy: " But mom, It is important..."

Mom: " Ok then, it is like this...*bla..bla*..bla*...and I love it when your dad does the 69 stuff...."

The boy cried, then the mum asked:" Honey whats wrong?"

Little boy: " the teacher asked me to fill the form and I dunno what is my sex and it is too long as you described..."

The mother fainted on the spot.

I wish my birthday is more meaningful...

I never thought that I will wake up in my birthday morning without your wishes. You were my inspiration, my dream, and my all. Now, I have to pay the debts I owe you most when you were missing me. I know how it feels. There is nothing much I can say about me but I really missing you for real this time. I am sorry for never let you expressed your views on everything you doesn’t like about me. I was too stubborn and rock-headed. I know this is all my defect because I just want the center of attention is mine. I am sorry for mentioning Elvi’s name when we were quarelling, although you doesn’t like it at all I’m mentioning her name. I am sorry for hurting your feelings with my actions and temper when we were in the Beta apartment. I am sorry for the lame excusses I gave you when you wanted me to go for a walk with you in the park. I am sorry I never told you the truth about the orange shirt and brown shirt you gave me, which I really love them the most out of all my outfit. I wear those clothes in every occasion until people thought that I only have those two for shirt. I keep all the gifts you gave me and most of them specially rewrapped with the same gift paper, untouched. I know you will keep Randall and Rudolf forever and ever. In this birthday morning, I would like to express all my feelings here and doesn’t matter what it takes. Maybe these sound idiotic,poetic,childish or pathetic to you but they came out from the bottom of my solemn heart. Maybe this is neither not a good way nor offending you but this is what I’m thinking about. I know you were trying to get through with all my lameness and stubborness. Choosing a place out of Borneo is my worst fault. We could have study there together in Sabah as you like but I am so stupid to defy our promise. It is not your fault I’m turnning into this way but I wanted to tell you that I’m not mad at you for choosing medical as your course in Indonesia just to leave me. In fact, I’m proud of you. Maybe one day our path somehow cross-over again, I would like to meet you as a new person. Maybe love is not our destiny after all. I know I talk the best when I say nothing at all. Sometimes the best way to say goodbye is to let someone you love to go on with the different path...

P/s: I love you forever and ever even if you don't ...

Racial unity is not a myth in Malaysia (adapted from KAMI group discussion)

Malaysia is a country derived from more than 50 races starting from Malay, Chinese, Indian, Iban, Bidayuh, Kayan, Kadazan, Dusun, Rungus and the list goes on. She is known for her multi-racial people and diversified cultures which attract the tourists from all over the world. However, the racial problem is still an issue in Malaysia. It is just like time bomb that will explode at any moment. Malaysia was freed from colonial armies of British in 1957, one of the reasons she was declared independent was due to the promised of our late ‘Father of independence’ to the ruler of England, Queen Elizabeth II. His assurance to unite the multi-racial community and developing a unique country by the power of these people solely had convinced the queen. Stepping into this new millennium, the racial unity is still a sore in our nation. Why is that so? Actually what aspect did this problem arise from?

Some words we need to carefully saying it. A little misunderstanding and provocation will lead to the destruction of Malaysian unity. This kind of issue usually involves the racial issue. We Malaysian must understand other races and their needs as well as norms. We must try to put our own feet into their shoes and respect their way of living. Living in this treacherous world, the things that we achieved now may be not sufficient for our future. We need to work hard and try to get out from the comfort zone, striking for persistent success. In government offices, schools and any relevant areas, there are some quotas that we need to accept and understand. For example, the quota for scholar holders for JPA scholarship is 10% East Malaysian students, 10% Genius, 10% Malay and the 70% will be any students from Malaysia. After the 51 years of independence, Malaysian government is still hijacked by this quota issue. It is something that we need to respect as it was introduced by the leaders of pre independence period. In this agreement, Malay has their special rights as the local inhabitant; they also have more priority in working field and so on. As a youth born in new era, I do have realized the bias in Malaysian government. Maybe because of the special rights being given to them, Malays usually preoccupied in their comfort zone but as for the Chinese and Indians, they have to work very hard to live a better life. This will surely increase their survival index in the industries because they are more efficient in their works. In my point of view, this is why other races can strive well in their living compare to Malay although their number is the highest for Malaysian community. Malay people sorry to say feel comfortable with their rights and quotas. They most likely to be less striving and improving in most of the area them involved in. As saying goes, people will forget their roots when they living in their comfort zone. I believe that one day this quota will be obliterated from our government institution but gradually to prevent detestation from certain parties.

Racial unity is not a myth in our country. This is because as the future leaders, the new generation must sieve the foul information that can brain-wash them. They must believe in the truth that was spoken by Tunku Abdul Rahman, “Youth of Malaysia, the rising and falling of Malaysian star is depending on you solely, together we make Malaysia a better home to live.” To fulfill the words, the racial unity must be there, the youth of Malaysia must think carefully before they take action as every move they made is count. By taking the dark event of September as an alibi to fortify our racial unity, we must never forget our history and hence the subject “Civil Awareness” is taught in every primary school in Malaysia. In the matter of fact, education seems to be the best way to curb the problem arose from racial issue. The latest proposal from our prime minister, Datuk Seri Najib Tun Razak, schools in Malaysia will be synchronized into teaching the same lesson and most of them in ‘ Bahasa Ibunda ‘ or Malay language. This is a virtual way to nurture the racial unity among Malaysian, rather than providing vernacular schools that sometimes deviate from the supposed objectives. I believe Universities are the places where the racial unity can be toughen. A University is a place where the students are collected from all over Malaysia. Since the students are more mature, their mindset can differentiate what is correct and wrong on their own. This is the best time to touch the racial issue so that every student can open their mind to accept the reality about Malaysia if they really love this country. Time to expose the youth about this issue will come one day and they must prepare themselves before something worse happens. So, University students will defy the foul messages that they heard from other parties and analyze the information taken before making the right decision. Actually, every race wants the best for their country but their intentions are embedded with their own perspectives that maybe clash with each others. It is the job of the new generation to take notion from each other to build a stronger basis for Malaysia by combining the brilliant idea of different races in this country. When the day comes, we will think as one Malaysia but not as single race. The racial issue will not be any problem and becomes the myth to the new generation. I am sure that day will come but uncertain whether survive to witness the historic event.

Blog? Finally....

Ntah apA2 Je lah aku pun x tau nih.... FiRst time to use the blog And it feels so....EXCITING!