Bila???

Bila kita terpaksa membuat pilihan...

nak buat pilihan ni mmg susah, kadang2 yg tbaik bg kita mungkin bukan tbaik bg org lain,
keputusan itu mjadi lebih susah bila kita terpaksa pegang perasaan org,
mungkin kita dah cuba utk bagi win-win condition,
tp smua itu mungkin x memadai... akibatnya, kita lukakan diri kita lebih...
itu mungkin adat kehidupan,
ye la kan, x smua insan sempurna,
yg menjadi masalahnya bila kebaikan kita disalahtafsirkan,
dlm dunia ni x smua org bole makan nasihat bulat2,
cakap skit ttg benda diluar norma, terus melenting,
padahal x sedar apa niat baik org tu,
pandangan kita selalu negatif, adat manusia la kan...
kalau aku cakap skit, kau kata aku jahat,
kalau aku diam jew, kau kata aku sombong,
kalau aku bagi kerja, mula la kau kata aku pressure kau,
kalau aku x beri kerja, kau pon ckp aku ni x betanggungjwab,
bila aku buat keputusan mbelakangi kau, kau kata aku tikam belakang,
bila aku buat keputusan depan kau, kau kata aku ni tburu2...

Tapi ada yg kisah apa aku rasa?
ada yg tau knapa skype aku x tutup walaupon dah pukul 4 pagi?
ada yg btanya kenapa muka aku muram jew?
ada x yg bertanya aku sihat x?
ada ke yg kisah knapa aku ambik benda yg x sepatutnya?
ada ke yg sudi teman aku, dgr apa aku cakap?

Bila aku nak beri kebaikan, org kata hypokrit,
bila aku nak jadi neutral, org kata aku ada niat jahat,
bila aku nak kawan dgn smua org, org anggap motifku lain,
bila aku nak bagi komitment lebih, org kata aku mngada2...

Aku nakkan perhatian org?
x jugak...
Aku nak org puja aku?
jauh skali...

Apa yg aku nak?
Aku nak org anggap aku ni insan biasa,
bole gelak bole marah,
Aku nak jugak merasa di normalkan
jgn la aku dpndang serong sbb kita berbeza...
percayalah, kita sama makan nasi, kita sama menyembah bumi bila ajal, kita sama puja Tuhan yg satu... yg berbeza cuma cara hidup... fikirkan lah wahai teman dan sahabatku di sana...

To my late best-friend, moga Tuhan mencucuri rahmatmu... Im sorry becoz IT WAS MY FAULT...
Im mayb excel in my academic, but I failed my humanity once, and I dun wan it to happen again anymore....

Changed...

People are people and sometimes we doesn't work out!!!

Change is the word that I always idolize every now and then. It is a motivator that keeps me alive most of the time. People always think that change really is a good thing. Maybe it is until a certain point of life for me I think. I was a cheerful person and chat about just anything. I was the family clown and heart of their ocean souls. Friends will find me to pour their despair heart and to cheer them up. Little do I know, I poured nothing to anyone until I am in a University, It is really a sad thing to remember. People always think that I am the happy go lucky person as they always describe me as, or a lazy genius that always get good marks in his study even though he never studies. Regardless of what people say about me, only a few had heard my sore heart spoken and almost nobody knows what I feel.

Back to the word change, I think that we should take the challege to do make a difference. Most of the time, we find similarities in life. We usually make friends of the same race, gender and status. It is a normal thing that we do, cause we find it easier to understand people of the same segment. But... Have we ever think out of the box? What if, we live in the land where the people alienated you, for instance, Europe. Can we easily find people that suits our similarities? The advice here is that, we have to step out of the comfort zone and try to think in an open-minded way. We can make a change, a better change. It is simple, by emphaty that is. Put ourselves into other's shoes and walk the way they did. Believe me, it is not a bad experience to do things differently.

Talking about traditional religious mindset of thinking. It is something that we need to retain as well. Don't ever change your target in life because of mere desrire and then destroy your joy towards life. For instance, your pride and virtue. Don't ever sell your dignity to people even if you are in trouble especially for ladies. Once the person is polluted, she will forever be polluted. By implementing the tip-top traditional way of thinking and add it with the change with cutting-edge millenium mindset, Wallah! A perfect Malaysian we call is born... Its up to you and me to shape our country one day. So think wisely now, is it relevant to fight for it? or we can share it together and make the best out of everything...

A scene at Sibu river side coffee shop...




Sibu Central market... a place where most people change their minds...
especially when buying daily basis items... because it is the biggest market in M'sia!!! Lots of variety!!!!

Rasa nak marah je...

Marah... marah...marah-marah...marah aje la~ ok la tu~

Hingga ketika ini, dia x pernah pon marah sapa2 dalam hidupnya... bukan dia pendiam ataupon x pernah, memang pernah, tp dia akan redakan marahnya dgn benda yg sememangnya dia suka lakukan utk hilangkan stress nya serta-merta... kalau x pon dia akan cari rakan2 yg gilak2 utk tenangkan minda, kalau x pon dia akan ambil ubat penenang, kalau x pon at least dia akan tido utk lupakannya, harap pagi esok hilang smuanya... memang mujarab...

Tapi kan, manusia skrg ni mmg susah nak diberi muka, kalau tegur pon akan melenting x tentu pasal, benci sana benci sini... mmg susah nak difahami jugak... atau itu lah perhiasan dunia masa kini? Bila kita nak marah, kita marah je, lemparkan smua yg ada pada sapa2 yg kita rasa wajar dilukai hatinya... pernahkah kita fikir, dia pun ada prasaan juga? wajarka? selalunya org kata "ADA AKU KESAH?"...

Kenapa nak marah? entah? tepuk perut tnya kenyang ke blum? atau seperti yg dibawah:

1) Gaduh ngan gf pastu kau lampiaskan kat rum8 kau ea...?
2) Gaduh ngan kucing sbb makan hamster kau, pastu kau salahkan org bagi kucing lepas...
3) Datang bulan marah... berlaku pada certain org...
4) Stress ngan kerja yg x jadi2, marah lah rkan sejawat... ckp la sbb dia kerja x jln...or watever!
5) kena tenking ngan org yg superior... nak lawan takut hilang kerja...
6) kena fuk ngan kawan... atas dasar gurau tp di-real-kan...
7) Saje je nak cari gaduh... bagi kaki marah...
8) dan sebagainya yg fuk-ing idiot... ^^"

NILAI MINDAmu...

Cuba perhatikan betul2 gambar di atas... apa yg anda nampak...
1) kalau anda nampak bangunan, maksudnya anda ada perasaan marah yg terpendam
2) kalau anda nampak sekumpulan budak2/remaja2 yg sewel, maksudnya anda rileks..

Nasihat:

Kalau la kan, kita rasa marah atas sebab tertentu, ok la tu, wajar marah tapi dgn kadaran yg betul, bukan sebaldi air liur dicurahkan... masa marah tu, buatla benda2 yg menghiburkan... jalan2 ke, makan2 ke, tido2 ke, cuci mata ke... Sebolehnyakan, try not to tunjukkan kepada orang lain yg anda marah... cuba bawa bertenang, mana tau dia dtg minta maaf ats silapnya... reda hati... bagi joe, marah tu memang perlu.. tapi ada tempatnya... disebabkan rasa marah atas sebab ....*sulit*.... joe telah berenggang dgn best fren joe masa dulu... everything kami buat kami buat bersama, gembira... tapi atas sebab tadi tu, kami gaduh... joe marah dia sambl terpacul bahasa x baik,hina, dan juga keji... akibatnya hilang la best fren joe tu (bukan meninggal tp renggang)... itu dulu, sedih btul terkenangkannya... skrg ni, joe x brani nak marah sapa2, joe buat muka ketawa, rileks je walaupon kadang2 hati ni terasa lapar (nak membaham org)... sebab nya joe ternmpak muka best fren joe masa dulu... dan takut perkara sama terulang kembali... masa kat matrix dulu, joe pernah jadi ketua utk pasukan kawat kaki... komitmen yg dberi mmg memarahkan, dtg x dtg mcm sama je...

Joe pon marah2 ngan smua bdak2 kawat lagi2 pembantu joe... setrusnya joe denda dia smpai dia nanges2 lagi~padahal langsung dia xda salah...lepas tu smua bagi komitmen, tp bukan utk joe sebaliknya pembantu joe... difikirkan balik, I was wrong after all... joe try cari dia balik skrg ni tp Tuhan loves her more than I do...

hukumannya... Joe terpaksa rasa bersalah seumur hidup, demi dia juga, joe quit kk..joe x pegang raket for one year... joe x pernah tengking sapa2 lagi... joe tukar cita2 joe... joe jadi pendiam... joe jadi budak baik... joe jadi book nerd...

Tapi sekarang... segala2 nya telah berubah beransur2 menjadi seperti dulu...
1) joe dah mula pegang raket
2) joe mula melenting, menengking
3) joe x lagi diam sgt dlm kelas
4) joe x lagi suka buku
5) joe jadi budak jahat kembali....

kalau perasaan marah itu datang kembali... terserahlah... itu mmg diwarisi dari Daddy... x dpt dihapuskan~

Check these Agros

~New essence of life~

Its been a long time I haven't post anything in this blog. In this new year, I wish everyone of my friends a good life with new objectives. Remember that let gone be by gone. Dun put too much stress in your or you will end in regrets. During the holiday I learned a lot from my grands. It wasn't a bad holiday like I always mention before. I learned that the essence of living lies in our own palm. Just that we don't know or haven't relaize our own potential. Its true, life is a fight, we fight with pencils and papers instead of swords. To some extend, I as well learned that I really love nature so much. It motivates me and refresh my body. I hope that one day I can be a nature or environment protector in terms of rights and policy to protect them. Check it out...



Yang ni orang sarawak panggil buah kasai



Yang ini orang panggil buah tarap



Bunga Kantan @ Bunga kechala



Udang sungai, besar!



Anak ikan haruan bodoh (knapa la nama dia camni?)



Riping rambutans~ depan rumah je...

I try to breathe...

Taylor Swift - Breathe

I see your face in my mind as I drive away
'Cause none of us thought it was gonna end that way
People are people and sometimes we change our minds
But it's killing me to see you go after all this time

Mmm, mmm, mmm, mmm, mmm, mmm, mmm, mmm
Mmm, mmm, mmm, mmm, mmm, mmm, mmm, mmm

Music starts playin' like the end of a sad movie
It's the kinda ending you don't really wanna see
'Cause it's tragedy and it'll only bring you down
Now I don't know what to be without you around

And we know it's never simple, never easy
Never a clean break, no one here to save me
You're the only thing I know like the back of my hand

And I can't breathe
Without you, but I have to
Breathe
Without you, but I have to

Never wanted this, never want to see you hurt
Every little bump in the road I tried to swerve
People are people and sometimes it doesn't work out
Nothing we say is gonna save us from the fall out

And we know it's never simple, never easy
Never a clean break, no one here to save me
You're the only thing I know like the back of my hand

And I can't breathe
Without you, but I have to
Breathe
Without you, but I have to

It's two a.m., feelin' like I just lost a friend
Hope you know it's not easy, easy for me
It's two a.m., feelin' like I just lost a friend
Hope you know this ain't easy, easy for me

And we know it's never simple, never easy
Never a clean break, no one here to save me, oh

I can't breathe
Without you, but I have to
Breathe
Without you, but I have to
Breathe
Without you, but I have to

I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry
I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry

Listened to the song, my tears drop...
Sometimes our pocket are filled with money but our hearts are empty...
We tried to be as happy as possible but it is just not enough...
When we are alone, we forgot...
That we still have HIM who always ready and be there to hear us...
When our friends no longer there to support us,
We cried and we forgot,
That we still have HIM who always listen and understand every word we said...
But when we are happy, the first one we forgot is HIM...Why?

I know I'm not a good person in this world, I've tried all means to be happy but I can't find it until one day... My heart finally respoken to me...
I begged for HIS forgiveness... I cried for HIS guidance... I knelt for HIS love...
I've may have lost someone important in my life...
but I still have HIM for me to believe and to give my soul to...
I wanna thank HIM for sending me lots of friends from annoying one to caring one...
No matter who they are, they are all my friends who I always trust in everything...

Essence of Raya

RAYA dek Danel Si Gilak2 ni..

Lemang itu apa ya?

Untuk Sapa2 yg nda pernah nemu lemang itu apa, termasuk diri saya ini, mari kita hayati siket2 cam ne mauk bolah lemang…

Komponen yang ada dalam Lemang = Buluh lemang, Beras pulut, Santan kelapa, Daun pisang, Sabut kelapa

Caranya Camtuk:

1) Cari buluh yg sesuai utk lemang, saiz sederhana besar lengan miak dewasa

2) Pas ya gulung daun pisang, masuk nya dalam lemang

3) Isi ngan beras pulut separuh penuh

4) Penuhkan pula ngan santan sampai muncung buluh

5) Tudung la lemang kitak tadi ngan sabut maupun apa2 jak yg sesuai

6) Bakar la lemang tadi, sampai buluhnya kuning2 oren jadinya, mu ada bau wangi, masak da tu

TIPS: Bakar lemang selama 6 jam, Jaga api biar sekata.

Nak bakar lomang nih pun bukan senang, mak fren I cakap kena ada skillnya tersendiri... silap bakar alamatnya x beraya la jadinye... mana x nye, terbakar meriam buluh...

Oleh itu, bagi sapa2 yg main meriam buluh, kena main jauh2 dari orang yg bakar lemang... 1km pun xpa asalkan jauh...

ni la dia budak lemang yg professional gitu

Ketupat nya pulak banyak jenis bah, salah satunya ketupat beras... huhu apain?

Ketupat Beras:

Barang2 yg perlu ada utk buat ketupat nya adalah seperti berikut:

- Daun Palas/ Pucuk Kelapa

- Beras

- Air

Yang ini I sendiri pun x sempat nak merasa… Dengar kata rasanya meletup2 sedap gila, bila makan ngan RENDANG DAGING, RENDANG KERANG, RENDANG AYAM dan MASAK LOMAK PERUT…*mengalir-ngalir air liur, cam sungai Pahang derasnya*

nak bakar ketupat pun kena ada cara nya gitu... payah!

ADa banyak lagi menda nak kamek tulis tok tpi masa x cukup!!! next bolg ok...

Smile of a minoriti : Sweet but is it meaningful?

Life is all about giving and taking. But not all the things we give will be accepted by other people. It is not that hard to give and take but who will really put it at a high value and solemnly appreciates it?

Just a mere smile can please a sore heart. We only measure smiles from who they are from. If it is a smile from our superior, we reply it in a hypocrite way, just to make sure that we can get their attention and yet some benefits. But is it meaningful? It is actually depending on the individual’s perception. I would say some people can smile with a sweet notion and melt a frozen solid heart. Sweet and remarkable smiles are the perfect cure to any menacing predicament. A smile accompanied by the lips of an angel is the most valuable thing I would love to receive. Nowadays, it is damn hard to find a meaningful smile from just anybody. Every smile we put embedded with lust, envy and maybe anger.

Living in a new environment, a Joe has forgotten his value of smile. He was a cheerful guy with a smile on his face. Any encounter will be rewarded with his relaxing smile, neither friends nor foes. He was the center of girls’ attention and all people around him. That ‘was’ him…

Adaptation to a new living is hard core important. Indeed, the Joe changed a lot but unsure whether to the positive side or the negative side. His most important virtue is now everyone’s virtue: money and wealth. He changed and really has changed. The long valued asset is now dispersed in the deep ocean of materialistic. He smiled no more. He laughed no more. He is still the attention of the public with his intelligence but now not the crowd who enjoyed his angel face. They crowd him for his mind, they crowd him for benefits and they crowd him because they know he is a part of them too.

The Joe changed a lot… But how can this be? How can a joyful kind of guy drastically change his motto of life? It was all started in a fine Sunday morning. The Joe just arrived to a place he never went before. The culture is different, the people are different and the food is different too… It’s OK, he can easily adapt to it, he thought. He walked down the street with his heavy luggage to find his direction to his new study area. A girl passed by. The Joe tried to ask for direction, he smiled like a newborn baby but being ignored. The girl showed an expressionless face. Wondering if there is anything this wacko guy wanted from her… Oh yea… the direction… where is it my charming lady? She said there is no such thing as a free lunch; even to pee we need to pay as well though. He paused and got the notion there at that moment. People are no longer needing his curing yet relaxing smile but the “valuable paper” or money instead. From that day on, he changed and changed and changed! There is no longer Mr. nice guy from him… All nice to him would be MONEY!

Think carefully my people, before you smile at people... U may never know wat they want in return..... Hehehehe...... *Mr. Joe Smirks*